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Tomorrow...it starts.

Tomorrow is for real.

Three hours of crying, getting it out, letting it go, let it go, let it all go, you used to be my Ro-me-o, goddang I love the Basement Jaxx. And I love finding "new" (aka music you downloaded months/years ago and forgot you had) on my iPod. Tomorrow I throw myself into summer, I throw myself into a real attempt at adulthood, I will not put my life on hold out of fear or love.

I wrote this paragraph in December 2003...I still think it's one of the most personally inspirational things I've ever written.

Okay, yes, so 1.) Drop a class, 2.) Audition more!!!, 3.) THINK about asking parents if I can quit the job...but I really do like having that extra money independent of them. But I know my dad would let me quit if he knew how stressed out it was making me on top of school, cuz he knows grades come first :-), 4.) Just get the fuck out and DO things. Drag people kicking and screaming. We're going to go dance in protest in front of the closed Rocky's. I'm going to clean this place up a little more and ask people to hang out in MY room for once. I'm going to go visit Dan at his house. I'm going to put up more lights in my room cuz I'm tired of the darkness. I'm going to have someone fix the damn airconditioner finally. I'm going to be fun and beautiful and REAL and I'm going to hope someone adheres to that and I won't have to be fake and I won't have to settle for people that don't impress me either and I'm going to be talented and I'm going to win you all over and I'm going to make you love me and want to be with me and think about me when I'm not there and I'm going to have things to say and feelings to bare and stories to share and I'm going to LAUGH until my sides feel like they're carved out of wood.

And I'm going to try.
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